I WANT TO RUIN TOTAL FUCKING LOOK.
i want to rip cher fucking anderson to shreds, i want to destroy every fucking thing that woman has built.

i want total look to fucking die. i want cher to be as miserable as she has made me (us) for the past fucking YEAR.

i have, BY FAR, the best boyfriend in the world...

so i get this bouqet (of which i will post pics of later). red roses and sprigs of heather.

tell me that isnt perfect. it came with this shiny silver cup to display it in, and it just looks utterly perfect. hes perfect



and ALAINA GOT ENGAGED!! wheee... im so happy for you!!! lemme know when the planning starts... i want in!!! :)


i'm so in love......

I HATE YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL SUCH HATRED.

The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University of Toronto chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when its compressed) or some variant.

One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.

As for how many souls are entering Hell, lets look at the different Religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more

than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

With Birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities:

1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it?

If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you, and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.

The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct... leaving only Heaven thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

This student received the only "A".

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HECK YES! READ THIS! ITS FREAKEN' AWESOME!

A scene took place on a BA (British Airways) flight between Johannesburg and London. A white woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess.

"Madam, what is the matter," the hostess asked.

"You obviously do not see it then?" she
responded.

"You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."

"Be calm please," the hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this
flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available."

The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.

"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the economy class. I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class."

Before the woman could say anything, the
hostess continued, "It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class. However, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting."

She turned to the black man and said "Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class."

At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded. This is a true story. If you are against racism, please repost this message

JOURNAL SUSPENDED UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE.

too much of what i say on here is getting me into trouble with people. i should be allowed to fucking write what im thinking; this journal was created for me, not other people. sorry if things ive said on here offend other people, well you won't be able to get into my head anymore. you did this to yourselves.

updated the poem  journal...

dark_witness

"She murmured softly, breathlessly staring out into the oceanic horizon, "And when he's near me..." she gazed whistfully into limitless waters, "I only wish I looked as beautiful as I feel."

And he was silent, standing there beside her, but not knowing what to say. Couldn't do a single thing to comfort, couldn't show how he imagined her... the sparkle in her eyes when she spoke, the glistening of her hair as it fluttered, every time she turned to face him... the smile she would give, to him and to the entire world, the smile of an angel, radiant and soft.

Ah, to him... she was lovely as the ocean's waters, shimmering as they embraced the dancing sun; gentle and loving as the wind, curling and sweeping the sea mist through the light air... to him she was more beautiful than the seascapes of mother nature; and more encompassing in her heart." ~aurora_dark

last night was so strange. it went from awesome to sad to shitty. i feel like such a fuckup all the time. i guess it cant be good.

christmas is in 3.5 weeks. my birthday is tomorrow. 3 months is on friday.
i feel like im always looking foward to things, like i never have anything. i know its not true. but im always just waiting for something. blaaahhhh

i dont feel good...
damn periods. claud, i think youre right about sex and stuff making it come earlier. and poo on that.

brad is way cool.
cassie is way cool.
jesse is way hot.
i mean cool.

I WANT MORE! more more more.

and chocolate...hmmm...steak....

today was an ok day. dad was at his worst. ugh. made me feel like shit all over again.
as much as i love rachel, she (and her friends.!!) make me feel like shit all the time, too. mostly just raye though.
but i got the job at balducci's (formerly hay day), and i got jesse's present.

yeah, i think thats all. peace.

so im about to go take a quick shower, then dad is going to drop me and claud off at the mall (its gunna be killer). yesterday wasnt too bad, i love animals, and my family, even if i hate to admit it sometimes. i also puked cause i ate too much. kinda did it on purpose, but i know it wouldve happened anyway. and no, it wasnt cause i didnt want to gain weight, it was cause i ate too fucking much and i couldnt move. felt a little better after, but so grossed out.

my hair is gorgeously red again. im happy.

got home ~2 this morning, rachels in town, with just about everyone else i love. which makes me pretty damn happy.

today will be good.

i saw so many people today...=D

the good:
-claudia
-jesse
-julie
-keisha
-brian hall (well..yesterday..shh)
-claudia wants me to put preston, but i think she cares more than i do... ^_~
-I HAVE RED HAIR AGAIN!
-friendleys

the bad:
-my mom
-mother
-madre
-robyn oestricher
-robin feinberg

the ugly:
-"claudia post-hairdye" she chips in...
-robbie
-robyn oestricher
-fight with mom
-MY NECK!! damn you, boyfriend..DAMN YOU TO HELL!!!
-found out that nick garcia was killed...???


claudia has informed me that thast enough livejoural. because i am still a virgin.

i mean, a mean girls virgin.

oh hell, i havent had sex in 8 months. i might as WELL be a virgin. heh heh.

anywho..CLAUDIAS HOME AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!

not only do i love you because of who you are, but i love you because of who i am when im with you.

not only do i love you but i love this relationship. its so special and unique. znd you exhaust me.
jesse, btw..IMA KILL YOU FOR BRANDING ME, GODDAMN IT!!

hmm...i dun wanna run this season...>_<
my cat is amazing.
so is this pineapple.

i saw hall. what a cutie.
juli is coming to school tomorrow !!!! =D
claudias home today. belzer....*shrug* evil bitch mom.
raye is in on friday, i think she said saturday too.
anna is in.
ben(ton) i saw today..=D
friends from hyde are home =)
CLAUDIA IS HOME!!!!!!!!

that is all. good night.

claudia comes home in...10 HOURS!!

oooh do i have special plans ;) buahahahahahaha

brian hall is coming to school. he was here yesterday but i didnt know/missed him. but hes coming back today. yay!

belzer is coming home tomorrow. im excited. woot woot.

but my mp3 player just seems to have killed itself. i'll call tech support later. me wants for trip to nj on thursday. hmm....maybe i can drive...=D ooh this thought makes me happy!

i think i wrote but im not sure..i handed in that paper for film that needed to be handed in, i plan on working on that storyboard soon, and then i just need to write an essay on hitchcock, and im good to go. oh, i need to read a shitload in one flew over the cuckoos nest. and that hitchcock essay isnt gunna be a piece of cake cause i know NOTHING about what hes asking. im like "...abuh?!" yep. thats me.

so more and more josh is turning into dustin. i can see it. but shh dont tell him that. oh well, im distancing myself from him anyway.
zander made me a cd. woot.
i think im seeing jesse today <3

btw i <33 my chrissy. i missed him...last night we were chilling and i looked at him and i was like "chris...why dont we chill more?" and then i realized that it was my fault...grr me and my standing-upness..SORRY CHRISS!! but i loveses youuuuu.